101 (Death makes a Comedy of us all)

A smiling clown walks timid on tightened rope
And peers down thinking this day might be last;
The face of fear begs in frightened hope
As relentless laughter demands to move fast!

When the clown’s descent endows
The eyes with moment of great fall,
Boom! Goes Death, and humour bows
On knees bruised to crawl.

The crowd,
Sunken deep in whatever is felt
by fleeting grief,
Remarks: “He was a fool; it was to be a
Sudden leap that would make
his living brief!”

And so, from the first to this last fall,
Death makes a Comedy of us all.

100

Some choices
are rightfully decided
on great thoughts of gold,
but by actions blighted:
no similar story told.

Other choices, although maligned,
are means
to ends
deemed most kind.

But by the shining of a moment
awareness is afforded,
leaving the most secure actors
in acts contorted.

So, the dark,
in all its magnanimity
plays our secret muse,
for acts would not be
if light fully shown
on what we choose.

And I wanted danger in clashes of violence,
to break comfort with the frightened awareness rewarded from no reversing.
And I craved a madness where Pain would sculpt soft edges sharp
and rust shine proudly on spirit well-traversing.

And from the engine of a heartbeat cast a smog so dense it polluted the sun itself and the whole world became tarred with my choices that wrought it so thoroughly into my now swarming nature;

and I!
Wanted nothing at all but adventure onto death.

98

Travelling through a trail enlightened;
surely, many rewards to be gained
when led in hope and un-frightened,
but the longer the roads,
the heavier hope grows
and soon needs to be shed;
or else the path, turned laborious,
may leave a traveller misled,
and prospect of reward, now spurious,
can render all the goals dead.

The duty of an organ (freeverse)

Those restless moments before sleep have a-blazed tonight 
And from four corners drew a room wherein 
A flicker of sense and 2 gallons of heated emotion 
Spilled into the most craving cavity.

To wake up, to disappear from illusion 
As if curse enlightened some inner truth of character; 
Certainly, a tender meat luring animals inching closer 
To better hear harmonies of sentiments pulsing.

I am not satisfied, now wanting, wherein wanton 
Becomes of me in forced flight,
And left as if altitude stranded what is most heavy,
Which by another name... 

Steady, rich, fertile; such are properties of
An earth where a predator searches, yearns 
To be scorched, scorned, adorned 
With the presence of those things that cause a pressure 
Forceful enough to advance onto living futures, 
Or the most alluring prey.

In violence, struck and crossed, etched a mark on wood, 
On paper a pool of ink, for that ancient story blessed a symbol;
Engraved a line between two sides maintained by 
Fragile power;
A tempo dances to new fear, hope, love, hate.

To deny them and yet to also give life all the same; 
It's that which truth and corruption,
Haunted and hunted, damn silently by name:
The heart.

Take Me Not As Person, But As Process (prologue to a photoshoot, but not really about one) (freeverse)

I have a place kept locked;
where your shadow
contains my hidden movements.

Unknown to you, I rest there, waiting, 
perhaps playing in the anticipation 
of un-concealment.

I'm hoping you sense 
the activity of wonder
through the tone of my voice 
when I'm speaking of all the things 
you hold dear - the things I'm hoping
will be in your power to destroy. 

Slowly the clockwork ticks 
into resolve, directing the cogs
in new alignment,
ticking down the hierarchy between me and you. 

But soon..
That bastard, that bastard!

The wilderness- that breathing, 
dreaming one
keeps traces of me
in laughter, love, hate,
and always, always, repeating. 
Repetition - that blasted relief. 

The dark spot, the one held for me,
no longer holds your comforts.
All has left,
as was expected.

But what has been kept?
Deep, beautiful becoming.

For what you were unaware 
was a signing of a contract 
to make you not a person
but a process,
in flux.

relations, or the dealings of polyamory (freeverse)

I saw you content, 
and then i crawled away in shame.
Nothing could have escaped the anger of
such defeat; 
backs have broken 
carrying the inevitable regret.  

   Can i rebuild? 

I found your presence so comforting, but then
you shattered it before me to reveal  
transparency. Like a fool, 
i was exposed to the meaning of quicksand. 

     Can i become better? 

I've held on long, looking at your shapes 
as i ran finger tips across
the dimensions of desire.
You slowly disappeared in that geometry, 
giving form to another world; beyond me. 

        Can i destroy? 

I waited, lonely, in idleness 
to receive you. It's true, i was awarded,
but in a million ways i was punished.
Then your silence leavened the coarseness,
letting me 
see you a final time, in resolution. 

"Can i change you?"

You kept repeating the greed
to yourself, through me, 
until it became extinct 
in all.

In the throes…

Sealed in a passage 
Bearing hallowed name; 
The highest blood 
Privileges one to attain
The shine of a mechanism 
And its demand of respect;
Blessed by secret passions 
For the cursed elect;
Hopeful for the quick grace 
Of sharp victory, 
While the chambers are without their monarch
Who capsized fortune 
In the sea of history.

Play now with absolved steps, small spirit; 
Your unbound labour shapes character,
Offering breath to fiction's eager ghost;
And to those bloated with misfortune,
Therefore drowning in dark cravings: 
The narrators provide stories of past honour
To stay afloat through courage 
Only afforded by mystery;
Indeed, none better can so swim 
In what orators give to war and misery. 

The new masters replaced the garden's tree;
With captured fruit 
Curiosity grew another
In aimless ancestry;
The new breed also sprouts and ripens 
In this strange but blighted Arcadia, 
Where they will be called monsters 
According to laws 
Ready for them to rebel, 
And where is the sleeping God? 
It has been excised as well. 

Thus the church bells ring in hollowed tones;
Barren, hungry - 
Gorging on responsibility,
They choke as if they've swallowed bones.

The crushing strength held
Onto such delicate conviction- 
It is Truth that bears
This most hidden vice,
And this they dearly harbour
Beyond shallow paradise,
And even farther 
From haunted Golgotha;
Hence, the new resolute will: 
Building an endless bridge,
Conquering distance en route nihil.

If you had the knowledge, small spirit, 
Would you continue? 
For your motivation will interpret the future earth,
But it will be far 
From the origin within you.