i am still living it (freeverse)

i am still living it

going through what happened

spent so much time playing the events out in my head 

going through different situations 

what could've been 

what should've been 

time hasn't changed a thing 

people get older and they die 

but it still remains

fixed into its original state

it doesn't change, it never changes

i have to carry it because 

i am still living it 

holding me down

like a cinderblock chained around my ankles

as it submerges me in the bottom of this ocean 

as i flail for breath, it swallows me 

it's very heavy 

the burden of history

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sonnychasm

Literature, art, science, travel. Writing fiction, non-fiction, poetry. Always wrestling with language.

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