everyone has these problems, these problems talk amongst each other seems the only reason people converse is to share their problems that's how i understand it the only reason people talk, is to express their problems problems with their life, their job, their school, their relationship, their family,
it's like living in a constant neurosis where i have to look for problems get pissed at something lose my nerve over one thing just to talk to someone everything can't be fine it can't be going well because once it is theres nothing to talk about,
you got nothing going on there is no discourse "everything is fine?" "it's all fine" "ok fine, have a nice day" that's how it always goes just left being the quiet one what else can you do? when nothing really seems to bother you? when your pretty fine with everything? it's almost like you have no choice but to be quiet or you could start being like them have something to stress about, worry about, get angry over you could be like them you could buy into that madness maybe then you'll have something to talk about it seems the most normal thing is for you to live in a hell to be miserable that's what people expect they want others to share in their misery everyone connected through despair,
you're an outsider,
if you don't belong to this melancholy there must be something wrong with you why are you so quiet? something bothering you? the world does not want you to be fine it wants you to be bruised like it is like they are,
yet, you enjoy it,
you enjoy not belonging you enjoy not being trapped like them you enjoy the freedom you enjoy being quiet you enjoy your apathy you enjoy it as much as your apathy will let you enjoy it,
maybe you can talk about that.